Tuesday, September 06, 2005
; 9:56 PM
Went to national library to study but in the end we got chased off because they banned people from studying the national library. National library is very big, with 15 storeys and 3 basement levels. It's big until the entire library dun seems to look like a library. i find it completely useless to build such a big library when the actual general lending area is about at B1. ONLY B1!!! how ridiculous with such a big building. In the end we went to mac and study and after a few hours, we went to bugis and brought elaine's mum present. We met lay xuan there. Nothing much happened. A sudden feeling just got back to me and it's a feeling that is very warmly and nice. This week it's a holiday for every students. I wanted to ask her out but there is something too put me from doin it. I hd been thinking for a few days and decided maybe we just cannot be together. maybe just thinking for her is good enough already. No string attached could probably be a good solution. Pass incidents let me think that this time i asked her out, i will received the same ans and that ans makes my heart shattered and i don't wish to do that again. Maybe i'm just too stubborn. Another though that came to my mind. In life, everything is changing, everyday, every min, every sec, something is happening, a diaster, a new-born baby- a newly-married couple, a just declared dead person, an injury, people moving houses. Everyone is changing and are we about to adapt all the changes in life like moving a new house, entering a new school, meeting new friends, having yr beloved ones pass away. Some are happy changes while some are devastating that one can't even continue with life. So i was thinking, people tend to change in character as well, you may not be what u were in the past. WE change because our environement change and i was wondering whether am i changing also because i feel i am not the old me. Since i know i had changed to a new me, i tend to cover my new me and be my old me. Mayb as times goes by people get adapted to my new me and forgot about my old me. CHANGES CHANGES CHANGES CHANGES. zzzz i want to be alone ..... maybe that psychology book cause all this to happen on me because i kept thinking about life........
